It is always difficult to manage the small belly-volume the surgeon has left me with, because he misdiagnosed a belly wall weakness and „repaired“ it although he was only supposed to repair the little umbilical hernia when I was 5 years old.
I will not try another time to work employed at a job, where I have to sit for hours and need a functioning digestion. The digestion just doesn’t work when I sit. And the bad thing is, when I force myself to do so, my eyes get inflamed and I risk another bowelswitch, which is the most hurtful and cruelest thing I ever have experienced (4 times) in my life and it lasts at least half a year, till it feels and works kind of normal again.
At the end of August 2020 my belly has been investigated (laparoscopic investigation). All the organs are healthy and there is no such thing as a fold of the transversalis fascia reaching into the abdominal cave, as I described it and felt it.
What still is there are the symptoms, that my whole belly feels constricted and that the belly is factual too small for normal daily eating without getting massive problems e.g. pressure on the bladder or diaphragm or on the veins, that my blood pressure rises unnaturally.
I have been sent home from the hospital and was very disappointed at first. But at least I have the information, that all the organs are healthy. So even when it hurts every day, I can always just stop eating or wait till I piss or shit and the symptoms will vanish.
I am retreating now and wait, before I will take my next steps in this case.
In the meantime I am eating only every other day something for lunch and dinner. Acting so, I can minimize the problems, the symptoms and the volume of food/shit in the belly. In the days in between I only drink or eat soups. For breakfast I only drink coffee and eat nothing everyday.
I will not work employed as Architect ever again.
I tried but my belly is not made (by this surgeon) for sitting and I get massive problems. Therefore I will do gardening, cooking, DJ-ing and work self employed as Graphic Designer at www.kpdesign.at and maybe travel a bit and do things I never did because of my stupid aching belly like buying a motorbike and going on holidays with people that accept, when I need to piss very often or take much time on the toilet. In the car I take a urinal bottle with me. I am too old to be ashamed of Problems this fucking surgeon should be ashamed of that made me suffer may whole life since childhood.
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